I have never realised how much time I take for granted being with my family and friends, I would sit on my laptop or looking at my phone. I would feel so stressed with work and feeling that I needed to do more that I couldn’t see the beauty and love that was around me. I stayed up until the late hours procrastinating and not being efficient and then would stare my my screen without actually doing anything productive because I was so tired I just couldn’t even think properly.
Half term would frighten me so much, it would be a manic time of chaos, not having dinner ready when Andy gets home and a messy home. Hyper children full of energy who have been watching me whilst I worked all day. What is that!? I have two beautiful creations that are actually the best little things in my world, they are my life and they make my heart burst with pride and yet I wasn’t enjoying them. The same goes for my parents and my friends. I said this year I was determined to enjoy people in my life more because Life and time is to short to not spend it with the people you love, the people in my life now are the one’s who are still here despite knowing me when I was at my worst. They need the recognition and love that they deserve! I think many of us take the people in our lives for granted so although I am a work in progress I am working on showing people that I care more.
I was determined that this week (half term) was going to be fantastic. Full of cuddles, memory making and just general happiness that I feel with being around the people I love, especially the mini humans I created, they make my heart feel like it could burst with the love and pride I have for them!
The biggest change this half term is that my house is tidy and I am organised. I cannot reiterate enough how much tackling life 15 minutes at a time really can change your life! Big jobs are turned into small sections of your day where you will get it done. A jungle of to-do’s will be crossed off and you will feel like a Lioness in control of your world.
One of my biggest achievements this week is getting me and the boys out of the house. I tend to do lots of crafts and baking with them at home but taking them both out on my own makes me feel really nervous and panicky! On Wednesday I woke up knowing that this was the day, I got us all dressed and we walked into town to our local art gallery who has been doing free crafty sessions for children throughout the whole week. Wednesday’s activity was making a spoon person in the style of an LS Lowry painted person. Ky decided he was going to make a Bouncer from Skylander spoon and I have to say I think it’s quite fantastic. J of whom was happy to sit in his pushchair and watch everyone was happy for me to make him a happy smiley spoon with a pink T-shirt. After we had finished our crafting and were walking home I really did feel a proud glow. We can totally do this! And we shall do it more.
When we returned home my mum and dad turned up as my dad was bringing back my car battery because my car was poorly. She’s now fixed, He had brought me a brand new battery for her and paid to get my door electrics to be fixed, How lovely is that! I am so grateful! Thanks Dad! My dad had a cup of tea whilst the boys had a hot chocolate and then took Baby J to make cakes whilst I drove to the cinema. After the success of the morning I felt we were ready to have some me and my big boy time, something we hadn’t done since J has been born! I know that is dreadful but it is hard. Those of you with older siblings how do you work on giving your eldest the same time? I often think that Ky must feel put out and so am really going to work on more special time with him. He’s such a cool and understanding child I fear even if he did feel it he wouldn’t say.
I decided that the new Lego movie was what we were going to see and I am so glad I did. Ky really loved it as did I. And the twist at the end really did bring a tear to my eye, if you are considering watching it then definitely go. We went on a orange Wednesday which meant for both of us it was £6.70. I thought that was quite good and was expecting it to be a lot more 🙂
What I would really like for you to get from reading this blog post is that : Today is a gift and tomorrow isn’t guaranteed so don’t take the people in your life for granted, ring someone you care for and tell them you love them, turn your laptop or phone off and go out for an adventure with your children. Take lots of photos and have many cuddles and snuggles. There is nothing better than to love and be loved.
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