This morning I woke up in a vile mood, aching and just bleurgh, I tried to sleep it off and made an effort to try and be happy this morning. I know that when I feel like this it sets me up for the day. But I had an extra bit of sleep, and it seemed like I was in the mode of allowing as everything I needed I found immediately, even to the point of having A PAIR of socks and if you know me well you will know that is RARE!
I got the boys ready and whipped on my clean the house clothes, covered in bleach and baggy. I really wanted to be productive!! Really really. I also knew I needed to because I can feel my energy and get go slipping with how much I have been dealing with recently.
After dropping the kids both at nursery I headed to my charity shop to pick up the things I wanted to buy yesterday but forgot to pick them up. 4 pairs of Mango sunglasses, a get stuff done mug and some mug coasters later and I was sorted.
Just as I was walking home something told me to pop into the PDSA charity shop, OH BOY! Let me tell you how happy I was when I found a Rainicorn plush and then Jake too! What!!
Walking home I was READY, ready to clean my house, ready to tidy my house, ready to sort my shit. I walk in and my cats run at me excited, however Thor ran at my feet, too quickly for me to do anything and I stood on his little foot.
Are you freaking shitting me!? Can I get a few days of nothing happening please!
I rang PDSA as it was obviously he was in pain and he was bleeding a little I was devastated but they got him in straight away. I then rang Andy in bits and he managed to get time from work to take me because I was so shook up and crazy feeling that I didn’t want to drive.
A health check, a quick check and a pain killer and steroid injection later, we are booked in for tomorrow but they assume it’s just bruised and a little swollen not broken. He was also given a cone so he didn’t lick his foot to death.
On the way to dropping me home Andy took a detour to his uncles, his kitchen had SO MUCH washing up for one man and he helps me out so much with the boys when we need him that I immediately got stuck in and helped him a bit 🙂
Peckish, we nipped into McDonald’s and then home where Thor was so calm and relaxed after his ordeal that he settled in for a nap.
I was all full of coffee and really wanted to sort my house but I was also SO LOW. I knew I needed to sort myself out more, so I did some meditation and then listened to beyonce’s new visual album in AUX on my stereo whilst dancing around my house like a twerking and dancing like a ballerina. All this is true!
With this and coffee my mood had increased so much I would actually say I was hyper, to the point I sang to myself OUT LOUD whilst walking into the school to get ky. I got caught by my friend’s boyfriend, I’m not even sorry.
Coming home I stepped into the smell of food, Andy and his uncle were making dinner. Turns out it was for the boys. I had a pot noodle for dinner. But he did buy me a big dairy milk which I proceeded to melt all in a bowl and eat with a spoon. I am a pig.
Melted chocolate means I must be due on soon. TMI!? Well welcome to my blog! But it also means that my emotions are crazy AF so trying to keep at going to the gym so I’m calmer.
Helen came to pick me up for the gym and wanted to go to Sainsbury’s for something for her partner. That worked out well because I managed to get 2 discount plants for my garden a thyme for 29p and a yellow Chrysanthemum for 89! SCORE!
The gym was quite busy but I was able to get a good half hour work out before having an hours swim. Starting to have real trouble with my finger muscles though, curling up, tensing and spasming is making it such a ball ache to grip!
I am home, I have eaten, I feel like shit and I am really fighting warding off tears. It’s 10 to 11pm, depression sucks and ta-da this is my rollercoaster day!
Tomorrow I need to pack as I have the weekend away! All I fancy doing right now is curling up and hiding but alas must push on!
Peace and Love x