This week’s word has been Relax, I knew this week would be chaos and turmoil with my thoughts and emotions because of knowing it was my Uncle’s funeral on the Friday. Wow what an amazing and humbling day it was. You can read about it here: Respect.
However knowing this, I chose the contrast of Relax for my word of the week. Hoping the whenever I could I would take the time just to be calm and relax.
So where did this word leave me?
On a Tuesday morning I volunteer at a charity shop, I really really didn’t want to be on my own and so instead of forcing myself to go home and do chores I stayed at the charity shop, I helped organise and arrange and I left to pick up my boys feeling calm and knowing that I had helped. That made me feel great.
I enjoyed spending a little time in my garden and rehung my buddha head up on the wall so she now looks absolutely stunning and is a joy to see.
I listened to my body and how tired it was and have been going and having naps. I don’t want to get into the habit if this too much as I know my achey body and exhaustion are the signs of me depression but I have let myself off for this week as I felt I needed the shut eye.
It meant I have sat for breakfast on the road with a coffee after dropping the kids off at school so I can have a chat with other school mums.
It’s allowed me to not feel so terrible how after such shit news my house was a humongous mess that this week I am going to drastically sort.
It meant I asked if our blind friend’s work dog could come round so I could have a stroke and a snuggle.
This week has been a bit of a blur to me really, I have been quite numb to my emotions and then go into quite a frantic emotional episode. That is okay though, it’s okay not to be okay sometimes.
This week however, I am getting back on my track. I need to start moving forward more productively, enjoying the fun and love around me and accepting the awesomeness that is heading my way.
I KNOW THAT ALL IS COMING MY WAY, I AM OPEN TO ALL OPPORTUNITIES.
My newly picked word for this week is: IMPROVE
I am going to work to improve everything I do through out this whole week. Really excited about this word!