Welcome to Day 30, Where in these 30 days you have seen the good, the bad, and the ugly! And yet we still keep moving on, one foot in front of the other.
This morning I woke up and I was still so frigging tired, I am 100% fighting a burn out. I got up, made sausage and egg sandwiches, and then crawled back into bed. I woke up at 3pm with a roast dinner being plated for me.
I definitely chose the right man to have children with 🙂 My dinner was delicious but through out the evening I have been bursting into random tears, I can’t explain why I feel sad or low or why my body is aching. But what I do keep telling myself is the usual mantra, just keep going, just keep fighting’.
Something I should mention are my furry babies, they are never too far behind me, like even now as I am typing I have my Rosie baby snuggled all tucked right next to my leg and earlier Thor snuggled in and was accepting and giving me cuddles.
I decided I would choose the piece of work that I felt most compelled to be a weight on me and just smash it and get it done. Luckily it was a fun one. So here is my newly uploaded Cool Toys for kids video:
After getting out of the bath there seemed no clothing that would be acceptable for me other than a onesie. I chose my minnie mouse one that actually has a ears and bow hood and a tail. The best way to deal with the shadows is to choose the joy in life.
Andy has handed me so many hot chocolates today and accepted my neediness. I feel proud though to be keeping myself going, to not just shut down like I used to. I may be having a blip but I own this shit.
I lay on the sofa and watched Brave with J, Ky isn’t really interested in doing the snuggling things anymore, he is more interested in watching Fifa packs being opened on youtube, whatever they are lol. So he lay on my bed doing that and being in his happy place.
J snuggled in and watched the film holding my hand, it wasn’t long before he was asleep. Once he was asleep and in his bed I edited the video until it was complete and uploaded.
Now it is 12.01 and I am SO TIRED, J has hospital after the school run tomorrow and I need to prepare some clothes so that I don’t have to think about it tomorrow. Tomorrow is MONDAY! That is so exciting! A Brand new start to a brand new week!
Life is about dancing in the rain,
N’night Petals xx