Today I have been asleep most of the day, I woke up in excruciating pain, Just so tired I couldn’t even move properly, surely this is not right! Anyway thank god for Andy who took the boys to school and allowed me to sleep, he even sorted for a meeting I was going to that I had to postpone. That made me sad as I hate having to cancel things and feel like I have let people down. I woke up at 3 due a parcel being delivered.
I decided I would go downstairs and sit on the sofa waiting for the boys to arrive. As I did, Andy came in and handed me a lush bath bomb set! The boys arrived just in time with their dad for me to feel like the pain was too much and start taking pain killers.
As they happily told me about their day I was running myself a really hot bath. I got in and enjoyed half a dragon egg bath bomb and enjoyed the hot water seeping into my aching muscles. I dried myself and put on my onesie as my eldest got into my lush bath. He asked me how I had sat in it as he was going to have to put some cool water in it. I just smiled at him as I felt the slight relief for my body. .
Once he was all out and sorted the boys and I lay on the sofa, J wanted a movie on and so ky knowing I was un well put one on, they chose together and the choice was Box trolls. We watched Box trolls whilst holding hands. I am a lucky mummy.
Their bedtimes went smoothly and I even managed to do a few image edits for my dream job, this is a photo of Coventry town centre, taken by me and edited into prettiness, I even noticed I had gone to The Top 500 on Tots 100! Yay to keeping on!
I have taken more painkillers and even a sleeper and spent a while watching enchanted and enjoying that I had placed myself in a way with cushions that I was comfy. It’s actually quite devastating to me that I can still feel pain, my next choice will be an apple cider vinegar drink and then to bed to listen to Abraham on my phone.
I was going to go straight to bed and not write this blog post tonight, mainly because I know I sound like a whiny bitch but I don’t have a reason why I feel like this pain and it’s really starting to interfere with my life. But I pushed to turn my laptop on and connect with you all, 1. Because it’s Day 33 and that is such a massive achievement. And 2. Because I know I am not the only one in the world like this that cannot explain it.
I am taking these pains as a sign I need to be more organised, so the work life balance means less screen time and more relaxing and gratitude and love. It will be interesting to read back to these days once I have gotten my shit together.
As I have been off my medication for coming up to 4 months soon I am going to start looking at Serotonin boosting healthy foods and Alkaline foods. A.K.A tomorrow is going to be a business planning and Pinterest searching day!
Now it is 11.4pm, I didn’t realise how late it is and I am hoping I can be allowing enough that I can sleep and not just be a resistant arsehole to anything that can help me like I have been to my pain killers.
Life is knowing the sparkle is behind the clouds,
“The only person you are destined to become is the person you decide to be” – Ralph Waldo Emerson
We got this shit!