Today I awoke with the realisation that I have a six year old, by the end of November I will also have a freaking TEN YEAR OLD. Just where has the time gone!?
Motherhood is a wonder of amazingness and utter shite. Excited but also excruciating fear and always wanting better for the human being you have made. A better life, A better world, a happy home, a loving relationship. Motherhood is ALL of the emotions and it’s not wonder that we occasionally find ourselves rocking in the corner and crying into a chocolate bar.
Children are fantastic, they are our happiest times, they are our proudest moments they are ACTUAL pieces of our hearts walking around in this realm of opportunities and prosperity.
Sometimes we need to take a few minutes to just create a vibe of positivity around your thoughts, embrace your small daily wins in life and be grateful for all that you have.
Yesterday was a day of me not even having the time to think properly before I needed to get on and do more chores. I needed to tidy my house, put on dinner, make a birthday cake and go shopping for all of what was mentioned so that we have the correct products in. Not only this but yesterday morning I still had a bright pink head of dyed hair and horrendous roots.
The day started with a list, of course J opened his presents and then him, Ky and I walked to Greggs for a special birthday breakfast of a bean and cheese melt. I then walked them to school where Ky walked off to his classroom and J gave his birthday sweets to his teachers and wondered in.
Time is ticking, I needed to first prioritise and write a list. I was feeling unhappy and did not want my bright pink hair in J’s birthday photos. I had heard about a bleach wash so after nipping to boots for bleach powder and developer I mixed both with some clarifying shampoo and massaged into my bright pink hair. Knowing I have to pack quite a lot into these precious hours, I also managed to prep, mix and pop into bake the first layer of birthday cake.
Within 10 minutes of leaving on the wash and then washing it off, all the pink was completely gone. I was so completely and utterly impressed. If only I had known this when I had the purple hair, I might not have been left looking like such a state for so long.
I prepped the second layer for the cake and I also popped my second hair dye on, a colour called natural dark blonde. It took so well and now I am hoping I have hair I can look after and grow.
It is amazing how quickly time goes, no matter how prepared you try and make yourself, your children growing up and being the sparkle in your eye is always a stretch on your emotions, it’s bitter sweet to the chubby little hilarious toddler that you used to have, but also how this small baby that you created has started to grow up into a wonderful little man.
I left the two cakes to cool down whilst I washed and dried my now normal coloured hair. I spread chocolate icing onto the cake and created a Roblox man with icing. I completed my tasks just in time to collect the boys and for Andy’s uncle to turn up and offer to wash up.
Happy 6th Birthday J.
Remember to keep on keeping on, Be grateful and Find the magic in your everyday!