Wow guys, my life has been amazing and so transformational lately. I have been working a lot on decluttering my home and just really working on my mindset that I am now to work towards finding the purpose in my life. Of actually allowing myself to feel like a grown up, allowing myself to continue to grow up and really believe and know where I need to go. I think 90s children have it harder with that things like buying a home and marriage are just so so expensive these days. I also believe having my children so young has somehow time capsuled my mindset and my behaviour.. but sadly not my looks, lol.
I have maybe 1/4 of my household belongings left and daily I am still cleaning and tidying,. I wake up EVERY morning early, even on the weekends much earlier than I used to and it’s amazing how this extra time can improve things. This allows me to have some time to myself to get ready, to read and to just prepare for the day.
ThWhen I wake up every morning I listen to gratitude affirmations. This helps me get into the thankfulness of how lucky I am to have this new day. I have noticed that I am a lot more grateful for things since this has been in my morning. I am also definitely noticing that the boys are saying thank you more too which is great. The boys are starting to notice a difference in home life I think. They are enjoying the consistency and also how our home is tidy and mummy is much more organised.
I have been drinking a lot more water lately. have cut out hot chocolate and the huge amounts of sugar that came with it and I’m hoping that I will lose a bit of weight, even so my skin is already a lot clearer.
So what started all of this, I was sliding so fast into the darkness, my medication needed picking up after days of it being there and me needing it but not going. My anxiety was high and my safe place, my home, was also the means of my entrapment.
I looked at the board I had placed all my ‘to-do’ post its on. There were SO MANY but it was time for me to crack on with things. Step 1, sort my medication so I can level myself enough to settle. I wiped my tears, put my coat on and limped to the pharmacy because my hips were so painful.
Whilst at the pharmacy one of the ladies there noticed that something wasn’t right and asked if I was okay. Somehow we started talking about THE LAW OF ATTRACTION. Thank you universe! This was when I felt my shift, as I spoke to her I really felt my negative energy. I felt the disappointment in myself and my life. I felt the limpness of overwhelm and depression. I felt the pain of Fibromyalgia and worst of all, I felt alone.. As as we spoke I FELT IT LIFTING I felt the excitement in knowing that ALL that I want ALREADY is and that I just need to keep moving forward and allowing. I felt that I have all I need to improve my life I just need to ALLOW.
Allowing when you are depressed is very hard at first. I started with a few minutes to just close my eyes and allow the light into my mind and soul and to give me my next mini step in moving to the next level of my life. I’m working in little and often and I’m finding myself now centring myself in a silent meditation just for a few moments throughout the day to make sure I am connected to my allowing. I also find myself talking inwardly yet positively to myself. ‘Ok then Hannah, What do we have to do next?!’
My blog is my passion but because of this I am a little scared of it. On the emotional scared = excited. Therefore I am going to end this mind dump on an affirmation.
I am excited to write blogposts on the hope that they will help and inspire others. I am excited about growing the amazing community that my blog is creating. I am excited about sorting a schedule for writing and for capturing video’s. I am excited for the amazing opportunities this fantastic blog brings. May it all continue, may opportunities and doors keep opening and may we all feel loved.
We have got this shit!