It has been just over 3 months since my last blog post. I can explain many reasons for this, the most logical excuse is having no internet and how full on life has been. The truth is because I am doing so much inner work I just didn’t know where to start and also I just quite embarrassed, I am a big believer though in how you should live and own your story as in being true to yourself you can help others.
Since my last blog post I have moved 4 times. We have been in a homeless hotel apartment, a homeless hotel, a 1 bedroom flat and we have been so so lucky to now be living in a 3 temporary three bedroom accommodation. This last change has change our lives so so much for the better. The space is really enabling Ky to have his calm time and he really enjoys his own space and this has meant both J’s and my own sleeping has improved as well as Ky’s. From how I started at the beginning of this year. I wake up everyday so grateful, it’s like I am living someone else’s life. We may be on a journey, but I finally feel like we are on the right path.
They say time is a healer. I don’t think it is time that heals I believe it takes control of our minds to heal. I have been doing so much mapping out of my past. I can analyse a situation to give a different insight. Basically the internet and all my inner work is making me a psychologist of sorts. I am receiving compliments on a daily basis on the changes that people can see in me. How I am clearly so much more happier. I even had a neighbour that spoke to me when I first moved into my temporary property telling me that I look more and more alive every day. I posted this on my personal Facebook today, really just for myself because ‘damn girl, was that really you!’ but also because it was nice to actually see progress for myself.
Yes I am tired but I am also 3 stone lighter, on no medication. Living in a better home dynamics. My hair is finally growing back after being mutilated! There are 9 months between these photos But I was still this big in January. I thank the stress diet, not having bad food around me constantly and not needing the quite substantial about of medication that I was on previously. As my doctor said to me, ‘I look liberated’.
The next step is feeling and believing it. xx
What are your tips for growing confidence and self esteem?